Really feel so bored in this two days, study study and study...
Out of sudden, I just feel so empty and so stressed up..
Feeling hungry but I don't know what to eat, Hungry but no appetite, weird right?
Sometimes I asked myself, how to be conscious of Jesus even though I know He is with me... but I simply can't feel it....
Later then I realised that what I need is actually the spiritual food, so I decided to play the sermon in my iPod and soon fell asleep...
I guess I need to listen and listen until it gets into my heart.
This few days have been busy with preparing for exams and couldn't even be bothered to listen to sermons at all.
Ever since the day of my uncle's departure till now, I haven't been listening to the messages.. that's why....
This Saturday got Hillsong Concert in church.. However, I did feel of not going but since they have gotten me the ticket then I need to go.. But of course, I shouldn't go with this kind of attitude, go and expect something good and be refreshed!
After the concert this Saturday, I won't be seeing them already as I have told *** that I won't be joining them anymore.
It's not that I am petty but I just feel that since they don't believe me, it only makes me feel uncomfortable when I see them . I tried telling myself that so what if they don't believe me, does it matter?
Yes, I could say that to myself but can I really let go? I think i still need time...cos if I still go, I would think of it again and I don't feel good to see people who don't believe in me....
But I know my Heavenly Daddy believes me, He sees me like He sees Jesus... I'm the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus...Amen! Amen!!!